Wednesday, October 19, 2011

optimism

sometimes in life things are just not gonna go right where you want it to be.
we cannot think that everything will go smoothly. it just doesn't work that way.
we sometimes expect it but sometimes we don't.
that is what we call challenges. unavoidable.
whether it comes from circumstances, others or even ourselves. we just have to cope.
it is too subjective. vast.

at times it will be subtle but at certain times it will be hard.
it is going to be difficult.

at times when we feel the whole world is against us. contradicting with whatever we do.
when all feels sad and somber.
it is essential that we do not crumble. not to give in. to stay on both our feet.
this is when we are tested.

optimistic.
the same as being positive.
will definitely help us thrive. forward.

where do we find this optimism?
often we can find it in ourselves.
because what's important is always ourselves when we want to overcome anything.
if not, then it will all be useless. no amount of help will get us through.

then there's family members. teachers. mentors. friends. and partner.
we can always rely on those who are willing to help. to guide. to walk us through.
help will come for those who ask for it.

you don't need to go through everything alone.
asking help is not a sign of weakness. but strength.
strength is shown when you admit your weakness.
not to succumb. but to acknowledge. to understand.
:)
we are strong in very different ways.
we can be surprised with human's immeasurable strength.

i find it easy when we consult our problems to somebody. anybody.
as long as that person is trustworthy.
:)

sometimes what we need is support.
that support will create that optimism that we need.





"happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if only one remembers to turn on the light"

Saturday, October 1, 2011

discontent

sometimes it's just hard to satisfy the demands of all people.
out of the dissatisfaction of themselves towards others they start to asks us things.
they pop questions.
they start to give us this and that kind of instructions.
start to order us here and there.
it will never be enough.
not to those people who are just full of bullshit with their own set of justice and justification.
they are just not satisfied.

its simple.

a point is just what they need. a point is just what they desire. a point is just what it takes.
but what is that point?
it differs to those with their different set of goals. their own objectives.
full of malice. full of conspiracy. full of purpose.

we neither have the freedom nor the free will of ourselves.
puppets is who we are. stringed.
controled by those who are said to be outstanding. those who are capable.
our movements defines who they are.

some say its karma. some say it is the way of the world.
indeed.
that is how it is.

the only option is to follow. only to obey.
for resistance only means handing yourself on a silver platter.

cool is what we call it.
to stay out of sight. stay unheard like shadows creeping on the wall.
invisible.

we are all that we have.
our backs pointed to the tips of thousand daggers.
unwary.
even safe can mean harm.
we are all that we have.

it's just a common blabbering.
of someone who wonders. someone who imagine.
it is not meant for the understanding of others.
because to understand it, you have to be me.

'i provide you with the shoe, it is up to you whether to wear it or not'

Thursday, September 22, 2011

best lah!

seriously.
cuba korang bayangkan dalam kelas korang, korang cuma perlu main twitter je untuk dapat markah.
cool gila kan?
:)

korang cume perlu tweet2, post gambar, follow sana sini, apa-apa saja lah yang berkaitan dengan twitter.
macam mengarut kan? tapi itulah kebenarannya kat sini.
salah satu subjek aku untuk sem 3 kat upm ni nama dia Language & ICT. so apa yang aku belajar dalam subjek ni berkaitan dengan benda IT zaman sekarang ni lah.
:)
sangat lah mudah.

tapi, taklah semudah tu je. apa yg korang tweet tu tak boleh lah yang mengarut, erotik tu semua tak boleh lah.
kalau korang nak cakap pasal artis yang bogel2 telanjang ke memang nak kena penampar lah kan.
mestilah berkaitan dengan akademik sikit.
^^ V

but then, sumpah aku kata yang aku agak gembira dengan kelas ni. sebab kelas ni betul-betul relax gila. tak payah nak pikir banyak-banyak pasal kerja ke, latihan ke, nak menghafal ke apa jadah semua tu. sume tak payah.
:)
tenang je.

aku harap aku boleh dapat A untuk subjek ni. sebab aku rasa tak susah pun. cuma aku jangan buat hal lah nak ponteng-ponteng ke apa ke macam masa aku kat matrik dulu. hehe.

sekarang ni aku kena betul-betul fokus kat pelajaran. pointer aku tak cukup bagus lagi. bila-bila masa je pointer aku boleh turun mendadak. lagi-lagi kalau spanish aku hancur. so wajib lah untuk aku memperbaiki pelajaran aku.
di samping aku menikmati hidup aku di uni jugak lah. tak boleh lah asyik nak belajar je kan. hehe. :)

peace!! ^^ V

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

just a bit more

The very long semester break is almost over! wohooooooo!!
i can't wait to return to the very fun uniputra malaysia. not because i love studying. of course not. but because finally i will be able to meet my beloved friends again.

but of course i will be missing home for sure. i will miss the leisure that my home provides as much as i will miss my childhood friends here. 4 months of holiday gave me the time to spend with them as much as i could.
we have done a lot together in my opinion.
but the most important thing is that i will miss my parents a lot. though i do not show it to them i actually care and love them very much. i just have my own ways to express my care.

i am just excited to meet my friends from upm. during the semester i meet them everyday but when this long holiday came it just feels weird not seeing them for a long time.
the only thing that connects us is facebook.
we kept on bickering with each other in comments, chats and so on. playfully of course.

but the time to return is near. so near.
when we return there will be juniors. ohh i just can't imagine. i am going to be a senior. haha!
its mind boggling to imagine what kind of juniors we'll have. their looks, personalities, everything about them. its just exciting. i hope. :)

 but the thing is. the reason i can't wait to return to upm is because of this one person.
fazreen~
the girl i love so much.
i am itching to see her, to speak to her, to wathever i can. haha! :)
i have been texting and talking to her on the phone for the past 4 months. every single day without miss. and the 2 months i had worked she never misses one day to call me and wake me up to go to work. except for one day when she accidentaly couldn't hear her alarm.
she has been there for me all this time. that's why i can't wait to see her. so adorable. ^^ v
i am just biding my time to go back. its so close.
just a few days and these months of waiting will be over. all of us will be reunited again. ^^ v
i would love to post about fazreen. i'm sure it will be a lot. i am not able to write anything right now.
but one day for sure. one day i will post something about her. i will!! i have made it my priority. :)

but for now.

kolej pendeta za'ba, upm. you wait for me! here i come!!