be committed

what is duty to you?
is it something you take for granted. something you neglect. something trivial.
after all those mega planning. all those vision to change things.
all those talks about making everything better.
where are all those resolve now? what happened to those burning desire to give it all. to achieve. to prove.
where are your commitment?? what is your commitment??

keep on running away from your duties. your obligations.
you are making others pay for your own insensitivity.
are you aware that people are crying for what you did. what you are doing.
are you aware that all your burdens are transferred to someone else's shoulder? your supposed duty.
are you even aware of all that?

fuck you! 

if you cannot commit to what you are supposed to to.
why did you agree in the first place?
if you cannot differentiate what's important and what's not.
why have you not tell anyone anything about it?
if it's so hard for you.
then what is the use of others around you.
if you cannot cope then the least you could do is to own up to it.

you blame others for what you are doing. why do you want to do what people are doing to you?
don't you believe in karma?
pick up yourself and do your job no matter what people say about you.
you should be your own judge.
let others do or say whatever they want to. just let them be.

"no matter how others trouble me, i should try my hardest not to trouble them" 
you should hold on to this.
make this your resolve.
you might find out that it is easier this way. in the end.

you know what?
your insensitivity had caused pain towards others.
do you even know about that? or do you even care?

you had pledge yourself towards a cause.
see it to the very end.
instead of bullshitting halfway.
you'll only become a nuisance to others.
a freaking tumor.

stop it. just stop it.
you should start to realize by now.
you should try to change starting from now.
you should take control instead of letting it slip like you don't care.
you can't?
then..

fuck you! 

others have their lives to attend to. you're not the only one.
others have their limits too. not just you.
others are able to talk and walk. why shouldn't you?
others could give their commitment albeit all the hardships and struggles. why can't you??

you want others to respect you.
start respecting them first. and respect your own duty.
not loathe it.

come on.
be committed would you? can't you?

get a grip on yourself.

tribute :)

happy holidays!
my 3rd semester is officially over! wohoooo!
alhamdulillah.

oh my. a lot has happened this semester. i don't know where to begin if i were to talk about it.
good or bad. that's natural.

what concerns me is how well did i do for this semester. academically that is.
i have not been the most hardworking student but to say that i have not made any effort is not right either.
i hope that those puny little efforts of mine will bear fruit when the results is out.

for all i know my carry marks are all well and good except for one.
spanish the menace.
out of 60 i got only 25 marks total. that leaves me another 15 marks at least to pass. which i hope i had done enough to get in my finals paper.
god knows how i did mine. :)
then again, i felt good leaving the exam hall after the spanish paper. it seems that i have a bright chance to pass after all. but of course that is only my feeling.
i just have to wait for the moment of truth.

not all is as bad as the other. this semester i got to learn to play handball. that counts as something isn't it? :)
for my own pride i got an A for handball. which i enjoy every single week. frankly speaking. i kinda miss playing handball.

*sigh*

syntax, phonetics, hospitality, spanish, handball, ict, and critical reading
may i did the best i could!
and i did not go through all these alone.
i am lucky to have friends. great people around me. charismatic and intelligent. kind and thoughtful.
without them i would not have the wits to get through this semester.

syukri (cuki), farhan, najib, hamzi, afiq, sayid, nik nor nabilah anis (peah), ina, erin, din, yana, syue, mira, laila, syafiq, akim, rusidy (mosh), akram, and anyone who has helped me through this whole semester.

^^ v

you people are some great people i have known and all i have for you guys are the well wishes that come from the deepest of my heart. THANK YOU!! i love you people.
without you guys i would never know what to do.
i would be like a kite with no strings.
you guys are the best. BA (englishers) are the best!!

All is well!