slap that face of yours

You are not that pure yourself!!

so stop saying things about others that almost resembles you. YOU sound obnoxious. 

see yourself in the mirror first before you want to start commenting on other people. 

just because you changed a bit recently does not make you pure. holy. 

because not too long ago you were just the same as the others you loathe. 

stop for a while. and start judging yourself first. 

people who know you might find what you say really annoying. ironic. 

others might find you to be just a simple fraud. 

in the first place, if you really had changed then you would not be talking bad about people would you? 

saying bad comments. and laugh about it. 

you are just disgusting. 

nothing much changed about you yet you act as if you have changed for the better of the world. 

come on. wake up. slap yourself. 

change is not something that happens in appearance. but as a whole. 

you can talk and admit all you want. 

but in the end. people will just see who you really are. 

so wake up. slap yourself. 

be committed

what is duty to you?
is it something you take for granted. something you neglect. something trivial.
after all those mega planning. all those vision to change things.
all those talks about making everything better.
where are all those resolve now? what happened to those burning desire to give it all. to achieve. to prove.
where are your commitment?? what is your commitment??

keep on running away from your duties. your obligations.
you are making others pay for your own insensitivity.
are you aware that people are crying for what you did. what you are doing.
are you aware that all your burdens are transferred to someone else's shoulder? your supposed duty.
are you even aware of all that?

fuck you! 

if you cannot commit to what you are supposed to to.
why did you agree in the first place?
if you cannot differentiate what's important and what's not.
why have you not tell anyone anything about it?
if it's so hard for you.
then what is the use of others around you.
if you cannot cope then the least you could do is to own up to it.

you blame others for what you are doing. why do you want to do what people are doing to you?
don't you believe in karma?
pick up yourself and do your job no matter what people say about you.
you should be your own judge.
let others do or say whatever they want to. just let them be.

"no matter how others trouble me, i should try my hardest not to trouble them" 
you should hold on to this.
make this your resolve.
you might find out that it is easier this way. in the end.

you know what?
your insensitivity had caused pain towards others.
do you even know about that? or do you even care?

you had pledge yourself towards a cause.
see it to the very end.
instead of bullshitting halfway.
you'll only become a nuisance to others.
a freaking tumor.

stop it. just stop it.
you should start to realize by now.
you should try to change starting from now.
you should take control instead of letting it slip like you don't care.
you can't?
then..

fuck you! 

others have their lives to attend to. you're not the only one.
others have their limits too. not just you.
others are able to talk and walk. why shouldn't you?
others could give their commitment albeit all the hardships and struggles. why can't you??

you want others to respect you.
start respecting them first. and respect your own duty.
not loathe it.

come on.
be committed would you? can't you?

get a grip on yourself.

tribute :)

happy holidays!
my 3rd semester is officially over! wohoooo!
alhamdulillah.

oh my. a lot has happened this semester. i don't know where to begin if i were to talk about it.
good or bad. that's natural.

what concerns me is how well did i do for this semester. academically that is.
i have not been the most hardworking student but to say that i have not made any effort is not right either.
i hope that those puny little efforts of mine will bear fruit when the results is out.

for all i know my carry marks are all well and good except for one.
spanish the menace.
out of 60 i got only 25 marks total. that leaves me another 15 marks at least to pass. which i hope i had done enough to get in my finals paper.
god knows how i did mine. :)
then again, i felt good leaving the exam hall after the spanish paper. it seems that i have a bright chance to pass after all. but of course that is only my feeling.
i just have to wait for the moment of truth.

not all is as bad as the other. this semester i got to learn to play handball. that counts as something isn't it? :)
for my own pride i got an A for handball. which i enjoy every single week. frankly speaking. i kinda miss playing handball.

*sigh*

syntax, phonetics, hospitality, spanish, handball, ict, and critical reading
may i did the best i could!
and i did not go through all these alone.
i am lucky to have friends. great people around me. charismatic and intelligent. kind and thoughtful.
without them i would not have the wits to get through this semester.

syukri (cuki), farhan, najib, hamzi, afiq, sayid, nik nor nabilah anis (peah), ina, erin, din, yana, syue, mira, laila, syafiq, akim, rusidy (mosh), akram, and anyone who has helped me through this whole semester.

^^ v

you people are some great people i have known and all i have for you guys are the well wishes that come from the deepest of my heart. THANK YOU!! i love you people.
without you guys i would never know what to do.
i would be like a kite with no strings.
you guys are the best. BA (englishers) are the best!!

All is well!

my 21st

17 december.
the day of my birth has come yet again.
i was really excited to celebrate it with faz but unfortunately i had to go on a program with my handball co-curricular group. what worse could happen at this supposed-to-be-happy day of my life.
what i wished i could do is just to go out and spend time and being happy. but things just won't go the way we wanted.

being tired the whole day, i slept immediately after coming back from the program. until night that is.
the only celebration that i had was just a nice little dinner with faz.
or so i thought~
after the dinner, we sat and just had a chat together.
surprisingly the cyberlab in my college was quiet.
cyberlab being quiet? very unlikely. but that's what happened.
until one by one my friends emerged.
the thing is.
one of my friend, yana, her birthday is a day after mine. which make hers on the 18th of december.
which is supposed to be THAT night.
so they spell out their plans to prank yana who has always been the mastermind behind pranks on others before. naughty yana. :)
and they asked me to join them. which i joined together with faz.

at first, there were just a cake which the candles were very difficult to blow. every time yana or someone else tries to blow off the candles, they just re-ignited again. what type of candles they used really intrigued me.
cakes are for eating. but not for them it isn't.
they began smudging the cake on each other's faces. including me of course.
after that i thought it was over. we all went outside to just hang out it seems.
and suddenly tun out of nowhere began to throw powder around to yana. which started everything.
they were all running around screaming trying to powderise anyone they could.

at that time i was oblivious towards other things which is my mistake. all i remember was i got hit by something hard and slimy. euuwwwwww!

they threw bloody eggs at me! 

haha. if i could recall there were a total of 5 eggs that hit me. one did not 'hatch'.
which i took in order to get revenge! the others were too far away afraid that i would throw the egg at them. in the end it was unfortunate for my dear faz who i smashed the egg on top of her head.

sorry sayang~ ^^ v

i don't know if they planned it. but i was also included in their prank as they were celebrating both mine and yana's birthday.
after a long and tiring day, it was fun to have played around with friends. we don't get that much these days.
too much assignments and presentations to think about. :)

from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU GUYS!! really meant a lot to me. it was a great 21st birthday.

credits to tun, syafiq, syuerodz, laila, mira, din, akim, syakir and finally beloved fazreen.
you guys were great.
hope i didn't miss anyone. :)

and my wishes to yana. HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY YANA!! welcome to the 20th club. hehe. ^^ v


p/s : look what somebody gave me :)

faz bagi kat aku. sweet gila!! ^^ v